Saturday, November 18, 2006

Detached

BatmanI’ve been here in California for almost three months now and I still haven’t developed anything close to friendship with any of the service members stationed here. Factors attributing to this may include inability to let go of the past and the amount of work to do around here. This hasn’t changed even in the recent development of having to move into a barracks room with another Soldier who’s relatively close to me in age. He likes to joke around me not leaving my “cave.” I’ve heard similar jests from other people in the past, though he seems to lack in the social characteristics that the others possessed. I wonder how this will play out over the next couple months.
♪…NOW THE WORLD IS GONE, I’ME JUST ONE
OH GOD, HELP ME…♪
Song of the Moment: “One” by Metallica

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

And the Meek Shall Inherit the US…

Recommended Reading:Testosterone Tumbling in American Males.” Yahoo Health. 27 Oct. 2006.
The testosterone-fueled American male may be losing his punch.

Over the past two decades, levels of the sex hormone in U.S. men have been falling steadily, a new study finds.

For example, average total testosterone levels in men aged 65 to 69 fell from 503 nanograms/decileter (ng/dL) in 1988 to 423 ng/dL in 2003.
I’ve noticed that males in the U.S. today had more pansies per capita tend to be less confrontational than I would’ve expected out of human beings with testicles. Granted my view on this could be horribly skewed considering that I went from attending and barely graduating from an Institute of Technology, where the males are girls, pathetic wastes of human tissue and fluids, unable to stand up for themselves are more likely to attempt to reach a compromise rather than trying to assert themselves, to joining another institution known for kicking ass and chewing bubble gum where assertiveness is often looked upon as an a positive trait. I digress, such a topic is for smarter men to debate.
“Man must evolve for all human conflict a method which rejects revenge, aggression and retaliation. The foundation of such a method is love.”
- Martin Luther King Jr.
Song of the Moment: “Fluff” by Black Sabbath

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Just One of Those Days…

The Internet is slow. No, I am not blaming some random, hiccupping server somewhere in the world trying to handle the packets of data I am requesting. I am blaming the Internet for its failure to provide me information at the speeds I desire it at. Bastards.

My car was supposed to come in yesterday. Instead I managed to get it today in the afternoon, AFTER the car carrier is towed so that it was no longer stuck on some irregular bump in the road. I had to stand there on the side of the road for about two hours until one of those industrial-sized tow trucks came to yank that carrier’s fat ass until it could move on its own again. Having a Privately-Owned Vehicle now will allow for much more freedom when it comes to getting around, but it’s adding other headaches. Insurance in California is almost double what I paid in Georgia. I also need to somehow register my car to park on base before the registration office closes, which is relatively close to the time we get out of class. Bastards.
♪IT’S JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS
WHEN YOU DON’T WANNA WAKE UP…♪
Song of the Moment: “Break Stuff” by Limp Bizkit (yes, I quoted a Limp Bizkit song, so hate me now)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Basic Combat Training

Drill Sergeant...  Why don't you leave me alone?Heh, it seems that when an attendee of the US Army or Marine Basic Combat Training regimens graduates, he or she is required to brag about his or her time there, even if he or she totally sucked the 9 to 12 weeks that he or she spent in training. Well, it’s been a while since I’ve posted so… I’ll be lazy for your sake and keep it short. Nine weeks of training equaled out to torn muscles in my hip rotator, the shedding of nearly 40 lb., and a big shot of discipline. Hooah.
♪…IT’S A SHAME
TRIGGER BE HIS ONLY FRIEND…♪
Song of the Moment: “Machine Gun Man” by Pride and Glory

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Why?


A lot of my friends and family have disagreed with my decision to enlist with the United States Army, so I’ve decided to post my reasons for enlistment and my rebuttals for their reasons for why this was a bad idea. I’m wondering how many people will actually read this, considering that I don’t believe many people know of this blog.

» Enlistment Over Commission

Iron ManI went to college, so it’s only logical that I become a commissioned officer rather than enlist as a grunt. The pay’s better as an officer, plus there’s less people on the chain of command that can give me shit than if I was an enlisted soldier. This sounds like a no-brainer, why in the hell am I enlisting?

If I entered the Army as an officer, I would have no say over what Military Occupational Specialty (MOS) that I would be assigned to and trained in. I would be placed in an MOS based off the needs of the military. Enlisting gave me a choice of what fields I could work in so long as there were jobs open in the MOS’s. I’m using the Army to give me experience in a field that I want to work in. I don’t think I would be satisfied with any old managerial position out there in the civilian sector.

Lastly, I don’t intend to stay enlisted the entire time I serve in the Army. Since my obligation currently is five years of active duty service (along with three years as a non-active reserve), I figured an extra three years wouldn’t be too much time to add if I went officer. Also, due to my prior training, the Army will at least be somewhat reluctant to retrain me in another branch. I’ll be 32 years old by the time my obligation is at an end, but I figure I’ll be much more marketable in the civilian workforce than I was out of college.

» Earning My Rights
Months ago I got into a spat with one of my college buddies over that whole Pentagon 9/11 conspiracy theory. My argument in a nutshell was that I thought it was ludicrous that the Department of Defense would willingly sacrifice the lives on those on that plane and the servicemen and women in that section of the building to cover something up. I told him I didn’t appreciate the fact he was spreading this rumor and his answer was something along the lines of having free speech. My answer was that though the right entitles you as such, it does not mean that he deserved it. His final reply to this was that since he was entitled to the free speech, he did not have to earn it.

I’m not going even try to wax philosophically about this since I figure people like John Locke and J.S. Mill have done a better job of it than I would ever. I am going to argue, however, though rights may be something that we as a society believe we deserve, it almost never comes without a cost. Most leaders aren’t enlightened or benevolent enough to give the governed what they universally believe they are entitled, so leaders must be “convinced” into sharing power with the people. It’s cliché to mention these days, but people in this country were will to fight for what they believed they deserved over two centuries ago. Another friend once told me that he didn’t believe that the Iraqis deserved freedom and the rights associated with them because they weren’t willing to fight for them. He also noted that he himself might not deserve the freedoms he enjoys now since he would be hesitant to stand and be willing to give the ultimate sacrifice for them. I share his view and see military service as a way to come closer to my goal of having earned my rights as an American. During my time in Atlanta I’ve had a couple of friend mention a sense of civic duty and consideration of military service after learning about my background as an Army brat whose lived overseas most of my life. I have a feeling that they were making such claims as to establish some sort of connection and that they had no real intention of following through with these seeing how comfortable they are with their lives. After I serve no one can take this from me.
♪MAMA, SHE HAS TAUGHT ME WELL
TOLD ME WHEN I WAS YOUNG
SON, YOUR LIFE’S AN OPEN BOOK
DON’T CLOSE IT ‘FORE IT’S DONE
THE BRIGHTEST FLAME BURNS QUICKEST
THAT’S WHAT I HEARD HER SAY
A SON’S HEART’S OWED TO MOTHER
BUT I MUST FIND MY WAY…♪
Song of the Moment: “Mama Said” by Metallica

Monday, June 12, 2006

Last Days as a Civilian (Part II)

I’m getting back into the groove of blogging, at least somewhat. At times, however, it seems like a waste, considering the fact that I probably won’t be able to touch a computer for weeks, if not months, at a time.

» Little Chad: Big in Japan
MONKEY!Chad was being sent by his employer to Japan for training or some other work related reason, so he came down to Atlanta a day before his flight so that we could hang out. We hit the comic store and I suggested the Fantastic Four/Iron Man: Big in Japan trade since I thought it would fit in nicely with where he was going. I had him help me pick out a Bible for Basic, since religious books are the only things you are allowed to read for those couple months of training. My other reason for picking one up is to help me understand half the things Chad talks about, if not to understand Chad himself. You can learn a lot about a person by reading, viewing, or listening to books, movies, or music they hold in high regard.

» “Walk Softly, and Carry a Big Gun…”
Space Marine
Rob popped online one night and we decided to have one last battle in Dawn of War before I headed off for training. We chose to team up against six other computer-controlled players because we were feeling slightly insane. Despite our relative rustiness from not having playing the game in months and the slight lag, we were able to lead our forces to victory. I myself was surprised with my stats after the battle, having killed nearly 700 enemy units at the loss of about 70 of my own. Not too bad.
“A suspicious mind is a healthy mind.”
Game of the Moment: Warhammer 40,000: Dawn of War

Sunday, June 11, 2006

"Orion" Live



God, this really made my day. "Orion" is what I consider Metallica's best instrumental, though many argue in favor of "The Call of the Ktulu" due to the symphony collaboration years ago. This performance isn't perfect though, since Kirk's "The Mummy" guitar went out before the first solo, though it still is a good live performance of the instrumental. Thank you, Cliff. Rest in peace, bro.
"God bless Cliff Burton."
Song of the Moment: "Orion" by Metallica

Friday, June 09, 2006

Last Days as a Civilian (Part I)

Katie at MEPSGod, I’ve been so lazy with the blogging. Hopefully I’ll make up for it some these few days before my enlistment begins.

» (Some) Freedom
I’ve been staying in a hotel for the past week or so. It’s been somewhat refreshing, especially considering that I was pretty much locked in my old apartment due to lack of key. I can’t blame my former roommates for that, though, since I would’ve hesitant to part with mine had the roles been reversed.

The hotel isn’t bad. It’s my first experience with living alone, and let me tell you, unless future living accommodations demand otherwise, I’m done with roommates. However, there are a couple things I could do without, though those are mostly due to the location of the hotel. One morning I was woken up by knocking at seven in the morning. I picked up my combat knife, put on my bathrobe, and answered the door and found a cracked out bum. First he tried lying about living there, which I found out was a lie after I called the after-hours lockout number. He then asks if he can use my shower, but I found it hard to be sympathetic to someone that wakes me up and lies to me. Luckily the guy didn’t argue after I said no, which was probably due to the knife, or the bathrobe, or both.

The next morning I’m napping after my morning workout only to hear the phone ringing. I pick it up and hear some guy asking “Do you want head?” over and over about half a dozen time. Confused, I answer with “huh,” only to have the man clarify the question by saying “Do you want a blowjob?” With all puzzlement over what he was trying to ask dispelled, I hung up the phone and went back to sleep.

» A Good Time at MEPS?
There’s a saying that every recruit in the Military Entrance Processing Station loves to say: “Hurry up and wait.” I’ve been to the MEPS four times now and each time involved 8+ hours of waiting, so I can see why everyone says that. When I was about to go for my fourth time, I resolved myself to knowing that I was about to waste another day, despite the fact that the DLAB test I was taking would only take an hour and a half.

At around 0545 all the applicants and shippers got onto buses. When I sat down in my seat, I overhear the black, female bus driver constantly announce that no one had told her nothing (I used the double negative to give you an idea of her speech). She starts driving and in the first five minutes takes a wrong turn into a dead end. Everyone thought we were going horribly late, but the bus drive kicked into high gear and gets the bus hauling ass down the interstate at about 85 to 90 mph (I’ve never been in a bus going that fast). We arrive and we’re fifteen minutes early. That was a fun way to start the day.

I’m one of the first applicants called out of the line, along with the two others, Brandon (I think) and Katie, who were also taking the DLAB. After a little waiting we’re taken into the testing room by a sailor who sets up a tape player that plays back an hour and a half of gibberish. Our task was to make as much sense as we could out of it using the few grammatical rules found in my test booklets. I was surprised when I found out I was the only one that passed, especially since Brandon had told us before the test that he spoke four or five languages spoken in the Afghani and Pakistani regions.

After the test we began the long wait. Brandon wasn’t very social at this point, probably mostly due to lack of sleep. Katie brought a big book of sudoku puzzles with her and felt the need to teach me how to play. I ended up spending around eight hours at MEPS trying to figure out sodoku and playing big brother to the girl. It turned out to be a good time all things considered.
♪…CAUGHT IN A WORLD WHERE
YOU COULD NEVER RUN TOO FAST
TO FINALLY REACH
THE BEGINNING… AT LAST…♪
Song of the Moment: “The Beginning… At Last” by Black Label Society

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Stream of Consciousness

Professor XavierBored, bored, bored, bored, can you tell that I’m quite bored? I should be thankful that my former roommates have been kind enough to allow me to stay here after the Army idiotically delayed my entry into the military, but I feel somewhat limited in what I can do. I can’t just go off whenever I want due to my lack of a key into the building and apartment. It’s getting so bad that I’m sympathizing with Jack’s bunny, and I hate the bunny.

I love it how Meghan will not hesitate to suggest things for me to read, but if I am so bold as to suggest something for her to read, she’ll refuse unless it’s in her “proper format.” Comic books are beneath her, evidentially, despite the fact that one of her favorite writers received his start in that medium and despite writing novels, screenplays, and plays since his acclaimed Sandman series (I’m not a fan, I won’t lie), he still comes back for a comic book project every couple of years. Me? I’ll give things a try a lot of times, even if it is outside my usual sphere of interest, though my motives revolve around the furthering my understanding of the individual through his or her favorites.

X-Men 3 was fun. I just wished there was 30 more minutes so that characters could’ve received more screen time and been fleshed out a bit more. The movie made a big splash money-wise, which was a big “in-your-face” to all of those people saying it was going to suck due the absence of Bryan Singer.

Back to the boredom topic… I sifted around a couple of boxes I had in my car for computer games since Ender’s Game only holds my attention for 30 minutes at a time, and all I could find was The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. God is laughing at me, can't you hear him/her/it? Note: You’d have to know my past history with this game to understand this paragraph fully.

I went a month longer than I usually did when getting hair cuts because I figured they would just shave my head at basic training, so what was the point? Now that I don’t ship for another 14 days, I figured it was time. That mop was getting unmanageable.

Abdullah’s a lot of work. It seems that when I’m not around he doesn’t get what he needs done, that he’s kind of a novelty for the other roommates, almost like a pet, to be watched and laughed at. Well, that and the white roommates are slow to get anything done when it comes to the apartment.
♪WELCOME TO WHERE TIME STANDS STILL
NO ONE LEAVES AND NO ONE WILL…♪
Song of the Moment: “Welcome Home (Sanitarium)” by Metallica

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Trusting the Minute Men

EchoI went and ordered four more 100 Bullets trades for about $40 on Amazon, so it looks like I’m hooked. My first helping of hard-boiled noir from the team of Brian Azzarello and Eduardo Risso came from my enjoyment of their “Broken City” story in the issues of Batman, which I still tout as one of my favorite Dark Knight stories. I decided to give their Vertigo book, mentioned above, a try and was initially confused. The language used in the book is very close to what you would hear on the streets. The street-speak changes to appropriate different cultures, whether it be Hispanics, Blacks, or Whites. The series is not only limited to stories on the streets, as there is a intriguing conspiracy behind the story. I’d blab one for longer, but I think Warren Ellis’s quote on the back of the first trade says it best: “Death, power, sex, money, secrets and bullets: these are the only things worth talking about. That is why I buy 100 Bullets.” My only regret is that it’s hard to recommend to the casual reader due to it’s harsh depictions.
“Inside this attaché case is irrefutable evidence that what I’m telling you is true. Also in the attaché is a gun, and one-hundred rounds of ammunition all untraceable, all yours. Do with it as you see fit. If you act on this information, you will have carte blanche.”
Comic of the Moment: 100 Bullets by Brian Azzarello and Eduardo Risso

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Shorts from Last Week

Mary JaneI figure most of these were stories or ideas either too short or too insignificant for one post. I decided to post them all here in no particular order.

» Random Points
Jack has a gay stalker. I actually believe him.

All-things-ninja seemed like a theme for last week. Ninja Gaiden, the new hamster, and last week’s episode of the Sopranos were signs too blatant to ignore.

Meghan and I were unable to come to a conclusion over who was hotter: Katie Meagher or Tiffany Barnett. You decide!

Warren Ellis is gone on a trip and FARK isn’t feeding me anything interesting. I’m so without good, crazy news.

» Four Colors on Pulp
I find it weird that Jeph Loeb’s writing comics with two of my favorite artists from the mid-90’s. They first announced that Joe Madureira (Uncanny X-Men, Battle-Chasers) would be penciling his first arc on The Ultimates. Madureira was one of my favorite artists in my early high school years and the main reason I read Uncanny. A week or two ago they also announce that Jeph Loeb would be doing some sort of Spider-Man project with J. Scott Campbell, whose art was the reason I started to pick up Gen 13 around the same time. The picture linked with this post is a sketch of Mary Jane by Campbell, in case you were wondering. He’s known for cheesecake comic art.

» The Bookshelf
I’m currently reading (or finishing) The Prince by Machiavelli, Angels and Demons by Dan Brown, and On Bullshit by Harry G. Frankfurt. I think I might reread Jared Diamond’s Guns, Germs, and Steel later and maybe even (gasp) some of the stuff Meghan suggested.

» Heavy Rotation
My current top five on iTunes are:
1. “Lasiurus” composed by Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard
2. “Orion” by Metallica
3. “Aerith’s Theme” composed by Nobuo Uematsu
4. “Trinity” by Carlos Santana and Kirk Hammett
5. “Awake” by Godsmack
Here’s an interesting note about the songs listed above. All except for “Awake” are instrumentals, so no lyrics. I believe that lyrics add limits to music and constrain the possibilities of its meaning definitely.
♪…LAST DANCE WITH MARY JANE
ONE MORE TIME TO KILL THE PAIN
I FEEL SUMMER CREEPIN’ IN AND I’M
TIRED OF THIS TOWN AGAIN...♪
Song of the Moment: “Last Dance with Mary Jane” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Quick to Point the Finger

Spider-Man SMASH!!!I came back to my room yesterday looking for Angels and Demons, a book I borrowed from my roommate, Jack, only to not see it in its normal spot on my window shelf. As part of my brain was trying to guess where it was (under a pile of comics on my bed), another part of my brain immediately began to try and figure out why Jack would’ve taken the book back and began running various retaliation scenarios. Luckily I found the book and didn’t end up doing something stupid. Yes, this is a normally how my brain functions, so beware. Yes, I know this is a problem. Just be happy that I don't always act on impulse.
♪…POINT THE FINGER, SLOW TO UNDERSTAND
ARROGANCE AND IGNORANCE GO HAND IN HAND…♪
Song of the Moment: “Holier Than Thou” by Metallica

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

The Voice of Silence No More

Do you see what I see?I snagged this post concept from Raven, who snagged it from one of his friends. I like the idea. Here are the rules:
1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again.
I used to do something similar, but I think I usually named names in those posts. I think I’ll break the rule above about only ten things since I have so much more to say. Well without further adieu, let’s begin…
I don’t deserve you. I’m selfish, I’m spiteful, but you’ve been with me since the beginning. I’m feel ashamed of how I’ve used you and I wonder if it’s possible to ever make up for all your kindness and patience.

Your presence humbles me. Sometimes I’m arrogant enough to believe that my life is bad, but then I remember your example. You taught me that no matter how hard things get, you need to keep on swinging and never to stay down.

I did not want to eat lunch the day I met you. I honestly did try to bolt for the Campbell Barracks food court thinking I could avoid you. I’m glad I overestimated my ability to disappear that day. The friendship we have is the longest running and the strongest that I have. Here’s to another ten years, buddy.

I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone that was genuinely nicer in my life, and I’ve met a lot of people around the world. I feel so bad about the shit that’s gone down with you in the last couple years and hope that soon everything will be ten times better for you.

I love to HATE you. You’re arrogant, cocky… I’d better stop, I could go on forever. What annoys me the most is despite all your boasting, you lie very little about these things. You’re one of the most competent people I know. I enjoy your company and I’ll miss it later, I know it.

Sometimes I like to joke to myself that you’re the fourth wise man, it’s just that you must’ve taken a wrong turn in the desert and missed that important event and got left out of the book. I value your counsel and cherished the meals we’ve had together, despite tuning you out whenever you started to get technical.

I’ll admit it, I thoroughly enjoyed ramming your head into the wall while using your own momentum against you. I’ll also admit to missing your spazziness.

Sometimes I wish I could slam your head into a wall, other times I wish I could hug you. You have the ability to infuriate me to the highest degree, while at other times you’re one of my closest friends.

You were my “therapist,” and I miss hanging out with you.

I learned more about you in four days than I had known in four years. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still physically drawn to you, but you’ve got some personality problems to work on.

I fell in love with you and you elicited feelings in me that I didn’t think were possible. You taught be to never let someone close enough to hurt me again.

I’m not sure if you know you do this, but you use your appearance and gender to your advantage, and it sickens me. Don’t be surprised if I don’t feel the need to call you back.

You psychotic, sexually-inept bitch. Next time aim the pepper spray at my face instead of my arm pit (I’ll admit, I blocked that one time) when you feel like attacking me in a public place.

I think your first words to me were a stiff “You there,” followed by a query. My first thoughts were “prick.” Like one of the friends described above, my opinion about you has changed, but every time I hear you use the word “but” in response to anything I say, I just want to reach over and punch you hard in the mouth.

You’ll forever haunt my dreams with your perfection and forever will you be a symbol for the unattainable.
Finally! **catches breath** I’m done with this opinionated blog of monumental proportions. I wonder if anyone will figure out who’s who on there, or if any even cares to bother reading?
♪DO YOU SEE WHAT I SEE?
TRUTH IS AN OFFENCE
YOUR SILENCE FOR YOUR CONFIDENCE…♪
Song of the Moment: “Eye of the Beholder” by Metallica

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

For the Fans…

AerithFinal Fantasy VII was a game I fondly remember from my teenage years. An overwhelming majority of Final Fantasy players tout it as the best in the series, despite all the great games released before and after it. The recently released DVD was for all of those people, the fans, as a thank you. This wasn't a movie as much as it was an extended cut-scene, and if you've played any Final Fantasy game in the last ten years or so, you'll know that Square Enix never disappoints in that department. Now I really want to play the damned game again.
“I… won’t remain a memory…”
Movie of the Moment: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children made by those crazy bastards at Square Enix

Monday, April 24, 2006

Some Kind of Fans

Metal up your ass!!!Recommended Reading:Some Kind of Winners.” Metallica.com. 21 Apr. 2006.

“Why’d you pick Metallica as your favorite band?” I get asked this question usually after I reveal to people that my favorite band to be four head bangers from San Francisco, usually in a tone that implies that asker thinks that there’s something wrong with me. My usual reply is that after hearing the song “The Unforgiven” on some kid’s Walkman I instantly became interested in the world of music, though that’s not really the full reason.

Before I ramble on, let me summarize the article linked above. When their documentary, Some Kind of Monster, was released on DVD, a small number of DVDs contained a “golden ticket” that awarded winners with an all-expenses-paid trip to HQ where they got to hang out with a band a day. This wasn’t just some lame extended backstage ticket, many got a chance to jam with the band and listen to the recordings they made while they singing alongside Metallica. I know a lot of artists tout their fans as being the best, but how many of them go out and do something like this for them? Metallica’s also done similar meetings with terminally-ill children through the Make a Wish Foundation.

I think I’ve made a good pick when it comes to bands that I’ll listen to for a lifetime. How many of you can make the same claim?
♪…HOTEL ROOMS AND MOTORWAYS, LIFE OUT HERE IS RAW
BUT WE’LL NEVER STOP, WE’LL NEVER QUIT, ‘CAUSE YOU’RE METALLICA…♪
Song of the Moment: “Whiplash” performed live by Metallica

Sunday, April 23, 2006

American Dreams?

Hill, FaithI don’t remember many dreams, though this one a couple nights ago was weird enough. I really can’t remember why, but early on in this one, I found a hand gun of some sort. For some strange reason, I decided to pick it up and put it in my front-right pocket, doing my best to keep it concealed despite the fact the handle was sticking out a bit.

Later I walk in through the front door of what was supposed to be a friend’s house, though I honestly thought it was indistinguishable from any other generic suburban home. Inside I find Toby Keith and Tim McGraw sitting at a table playing Texas Hold ‘Em and drinking brews. Funny thing is that I really don’t listen country much at all, and if I do, it’s usually Waylon Jennings, Willie Nelson, or Hank Williams, Jr.; the old shit, you know? Well, I just sat down without saying a word and listened to the two country singers talk about aliases they’d used in the past when booked into hotels on tours. After a while I began hoping that Shania Twain and/or Faith Hill would appear naked in this wacky dream, but no such luck. For some reason, Jack’s dog, Boden appeared and starts growling at my, his stare fixated on my front-right pocket. I then noticed that the two singers also had their attentions on me while reaching for shotguns that I don’t remember leaning on their chairs. I get up slowly with my hands up, and make my way out of the house without any shots fired.

After leaving the house I’m surprised to hear my phone ring. I pull it out of my pocket and groan in disappointment when I find it’s my RAZR (I have multiple phones). The caller’s my old buddy Chris, whom I’d just spoken to for the first time in over a year a day or two ago. He said he was holed up in a classroom and needed some help. I make my way to the school he’s in, which was HHS, just all gray. While sneaking through the halls while communicating with Bluetooth headsets (something I don’t own) and as I pass by Mr. Means’ class/lab I hear him whisper, “I shit, I’m about to be caught.” I remember recalling being confused about being able to open the door without being heard. I kicked the guy in the back of his left knee, caught his head between my left arm and ribs under my armpit as he buckled backwards and stabbed my Applegate combat knife at an angle which the blade went under the guy’s ribs and into those vitals protected underneath. He struggled a little but eventually stopped moving. I set him down quietly and crept behind the big table at the front of the class/lab used for demonstrations and then whispered into the Bluetooth headset to see how Chris was doing. Before getting any sort of response, my alarm goes off and it’s 4:35 AM and time for me to go to the gym. Weird ass dream.
♪…SLEEP MY FRIEND AND YOU WILL SEE
THAT DREAM IS MY REALITY
THEY KEEP ME LOCKED UP IN THIS CAGE
CAN’T THEY SEE IT’S WHY MY BRAIN SAYS “RAGE”…♪
Song of the Moment: “Welcome Home (Sanitarium)” by Metallica

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

HOORES!

???I don’t understand how you accidentally sit on a Motorola Razr and accidentally dial somebody. The Razr is a flip phone, so if you sit on the damned thing while it’s open, which is the only way you can possibly access the keypad to dial, you’d cause considerable damage to the phone’s hinge and its ability to operate in general. Second, girl’s tend to carry their phones in their little bags, not pockets. I hate it when people tell lies that are really easy to see through.
♪…DRAGGING ME DOWN
WHY YOU AROUND?
SO USELESS

IT AIN'T MY FALL
IT AIN'T MY CALL
IT AIN'T MY BITCH…♪
Song of the Moment: “Ain’t My Bitch” by Metallica

Saturday, April 15, 2006

Reboot Pending and other Gibbering

StormI read Mark Millar’s Chosen miniseries for Dark Horse the other day. That ending was somewhat disturbing. It’s not the last page that got me; it’s what was explained as what happened. The man’s a master of shock.

Beware Asian buffets that have more than one adjective, especially those with “SUPER GRAND” in all caps. I must’ve gained two inches worth of waistline on Thursday.

Katie Meagher in a bikini... **glazes over for a few moments before shaking head** Stay focused, David.

Michael Turner, an artist that got big due to his work on Top Cow’s Witchblade, has been doing some cool covers for the big two in the last couple years. The picture posted here is his depiction of the character Storm, most likely for that upcoming wedding and all. No, she's not naked, but close enough.

I was rowing earlier tonight on the GT gym’s track, which overlooks the basketball courts. There was some girls’ basketball tourney going on, so a lot of the families were on the track watching. A lot of the little kids were running around and some joined me on the rowing machines next to me. They had problems with it, but it was still fun to watch.

I’ll be beginning training soon.
♪WAIT ANOTHER MINUTE
CAN’T YOU SEE WHAT THIS PAIN HAS FUCKING DONE TO ME
I’M ALIVE AND STILL KICKING
WHAT YOU SEE I CAN’T SEE…
AND MAYBE YOU’LL THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK…♪
Song of the Moment: “Awake” by Godsmack
Jakita Wagner kicking... spine?

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

More Coldplay Bashing

ColdplayFew things in this world warm my soul more than hearing people bash Coldplay in creative ways. I remember nearly falling out of my seat after the jab thrown in The 40-Year Old Virgin. This new one comes to me courtesy of my favorite British writer, Warren Ellis. One thing that might be helpful is the fact that the main singer has a fondness for knit hats.
This year, the US got The Go!Team, whom I've been listening to since the Junior Kickstart EP. Which makes up for exporting Coldplay, I guess, for which we should have been prosecuted under international war crimes law. But, you know, you keep fucking with us at airports and we'll keep sending you educationally subnormal ponces with socks for hats.
Song of the Moment: “Clocks” by Coldplay

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Demon Alcohol

James HetfieldI have trouble sleeping. I workout about three hours a day every day of the week and I still have trouble sleeping, which makes it hard to get up at 4:30 the next morning. Nyquil stopped working for me in 2001, so I’ve had to make some additions. As of late I’ve been adding a double or two of whiskey to get some sort of drowsiness, anything to feel tired enough to sleep soon after laying down. The problem is every time I do this, it brings out my worst fears and anxieties, which taunt me for the hour or two it takes me to fall asleep. I’d stop, but I’d lose needed sleep. Heh, sucks to be me, I guess.
♪…I’M FRANTIC IN YOUR SOOTHING ARMS
I CAN NOT SLEEP IN THIS DOWN FILLED WORLD
I’VE FOUND SAFETY IN THIS LONELINESS
BUT I CAN NOT STAND IT ANYMORE

CROSS MY HEART HOPE NOT TO DIE
SWALLOW EVIL, RIDE THE SKY
LOSE MYSELF IN A CROWDED ROOM
YOU FOOL, YOU FOOL, IT WILL BE HERE SOON…♪
Song of the Moment: “The Unnamed Feeling” by Metallica

Monday, March 27, 2006

Frustrations

St. AngerThis job search is frustrating. Thanks to advancements in internet technology, just about every company uses online application methods. Since many Fortune 500 companies have hundreds of applicants a month, sorting is needed for companies to be able to look over the “better” candidates in a timely fashion. One of the first sort criteria on these pages tends to be GPA, which means I get shuffled lower in the stack of applications, despite having a better than average résumé and a nice letter of recommendation. When I do get interviews, they’re with small companies that ask during the interview they ask me if I really want to work there in a manner that tells me that they think that I believe the job I’m interviewing for is beneath me. Of course I reply yes and smile, but I still get snubbed and not get called back. It really makes me doubt that my four and a half years at Georgia Tech were even worth a damn. The school’s reputation carries far, my ass. I could’ve gone to an easier school and gotten far better grades and kept the same work experience. It makes me want to punch people who lecture me on job searches in the face.

Mike says he’s dying again, having six months or so. I know he wants to see old friends, but with him I’m never sure if he’s telling the truth. The ideal thing to happen here is to get employment before the summer, take a week off and go with him to Rock am Ring to see Metallica, but the big if is getting a job before then.

Jack let the hamster loose. I think the hamster has gotten loose three times now, though the prior two times were for different reasons. I really didn’t get angry over this, just sighed. It’s hard enough to find the damned thing during the day due to its sleep schedule, so I figure nigh will be the time to look.

I’ve noticed that the common area has continued to get messy, despite Matt being gone. I used to attribute the problem to him, but I think it’s a guy thing now. The only roommate I’ve had that was consistent with keeping living rooms and kitchens clean was Chien, though after I moved out of 8th Street that place went straight to hell.
♪…BEEN HERE BEFORE COULDN’T SAY I LIKED IT
DO I START WRITING ALL THIS DOWN?
JUST LET ME PLUG YOU INTO MY WORLD
CAN’T YOU HELP ME BE UNCRAZY?... ♪
Song of the Moment: “The Unnamed Feeling” by Metallica

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Photoshopped and a Race War

Hottie of the Moment:  Ellen PageRecommended Viewing: A Scanner Darkly Trailer.

This movie interests me solely due to the fact that it looks like every frame of video was put through one or two Photoshop filters (posterize and cutout maybe). I might have to go see this art-shop scifi thriller.

Recommended Viewing: X3: The Last Stand Trailer.

Wow, I really want to see this now. I’m hoping it’s as good as the trailer (linked above). It also seems they’re going to give the Oscar-winning actress in their cast a chance to act for once in the series.
When the air is still... And the night has fallen... There is only one question you must answer... Who will you stand with?
Movie of the Moment: X3: The Last Stand

Monday, March 06, 2006

Intruder Alert!

Armed and DangerousAfter finishing an interview for a Midtown firm one of my interviewers decided to check his e-mail on his way to show me around the office. What he found was an e-mail warning building occupants of an armed suspect that police believe had entered the building. This resulted in me staying in the building an extra hour than was intended. Gotta love Midtown.
♪…WALKING DOWN THE STREET, SHOOTING PEOPLE THAT I MEET
FULLY LOADED TOMMY GUN
HERE COME THE DEPUTY, TRY FUCKING GETTING ME
GOTTA FUCKING GET UP AND RUN…♪
Song of the Moment: “Stone Cold Crazy” covered by Metallica

Friday, February 24, 2006

Weekly Pulls [22 Feb 2006]

Cover of the Moment:  'Batman' #650I bought more comics than I should’ve this week. I was originally thinking there would be only four but I picked up about seven plus the new issue of Wizard. Comic runs are getting expensive.

» The American Way #1 (Wildstorm)
The guy who drew this issue, Georges Jeanty, was doing a signing in store the day this book was released. Ian and I had a pleasant talk with him for about five minutes about comics, and I tell you it’s made reading this more enjoyable. Initially it wasn’t anything new in terms of ideas, but the end was interesting. The artwork was solid so this was a good pull this week. An added bonus was seeing the sign of the Fox Theater, a landmark in Atlanta, in the book.
Rating: 7 out of 10 (good)

» Astonishing X-Men #13 (Marvel)
I missed this book. It’s the only consistent X-Men title and deserves to be a flagship title, though I’ll admit that the last page’s spread was kind of goofy looking.
Rating: 9 out of 10 (good)

» Batman #650 (DC)
Talk about a typical ending to a storyline that could’ve been interesting. The horrible art didn’t’ help much.
Rating: 5 out of 10 (average)

» Captain America #15 (Marvel)
Brubaker’s consistent with his writing. This issue was good despite not focusing much on Cap at all.
Rating: 7 out of 10 (good)

» Ultimate Wolverine vs. Hulk #2 (Marvel)
One of the better Bruce Banner stories I’ve read in a while. This issue was also my introduction to the word “tofurkey” in a highly humorous manner.
Rating: 10 out of 10 (excellent)

» X-Men #183 (Marvel)
Eh, I can’t wait until a new writing team is put on this book. This Apocalypse story really isn’t holding my interest.
Rating: 6 out of 10 (average)
“Oh, and fascism’s better, then? Not better, maybe, but more honest, at least. It don’t pretend to value human life while making that life a helluva lot worse off.”
Comic of the Moment: Ultimate Wolverine vs. Hulk #2 by Damon Lindelof and Leinil Francis Yu

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Overconfidence

A Vulgar Display of PowerJack’s an overconfident bastard to the point of arrogance. He thinks he’s a bona-fide badass. He brags about working lumber at Home Depot in a manner that makes it sound like he’s the only one that can do his job. A couple days ago he told a story about an encounter with some guy and girl he didn’t know. They were yelling at each other and at some point the guy grabs the girl by the wrist. Thinking himself a southern gentleman he approaches them and asks that the guy let the girl go. Then the guy without warning uppercuts him to the stomach, following through with his torso, and knocked the wind out of Jack. He asks Jack, who’s hunched over trying to regain his breath, if he wants some more. Jack puts a finger up and says something along the lines of no because he let the lady go when he threw the punch. I wonder if Jack’s learned the lesson to be had here?
♪…JUST AN IGNORANT CUNT, TALKIN’ SUCH SHIT
TRYIN’ TO ACT LIKE A MAN, YOU LITTLE FUCKIN’ PUNK KID…♪
Song of the Moment: “13 Years of Grief” by Black Label Society

Friday, February 17, 2006

Letter of Recommendation

During my time at Georgia Tech I've had the pleasure of learning from Professor Endicott for about two years. Last month he managed to find some time to write up a letter of recommendation for me despite myself having to ask on such short notice. I've decided to display the letter on here, though I've edited these uploaded page scans to exclude contact information and signatures. A lot of my friends who have seen this already seemed to get a laugh out of the letter saying that I have a “working moral compass.” If you can't read the letter, click on it and it'll take you to a page where you can enlarge it.

Endicott Letter pg 1

Endicott Letter pg 2
♪…TIME, TAKE SOME TIME
IF YOU WOULDN’T MIND
JUST A MINUTE OR TWO
CUZ TIME DONE WEIGHIN’ ON MY MIND
BLINDED MY EYES
NOT KNOWIN’ WHAT TO DO…♪
Song of the Moment: “Found a Friend” by Pride and Glory

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Metallica + Rick Rubin = ?

Metal up your ass!Famed producer Rick Rubin (Red Hot Chili Peppers, Johnny Cash, Slayer, etc.) is slated to produce Metallica’s upcoming album. The surprising thing here is Bob Rock, the band’s producer for the last six albums or so, isn’t behind the knobs on this one, much to the elation of his nay-sayers. The last album saw the return of relatively complex riffing despite the use of a drop D style tuning (common amongst rock and metal bands due to easier power chord play, usually leading to rather uninteresting instrumental). Maybe this new CD will mark the return of solos? I kind of missed them in St. Anger.
♪…SMASHING THROUGH THE BOUNDARIES, LUNACY HAS FOUND ME
CANNOT STOP THE BATTERY
POUNDING OUT AGGRESSION TURNS INTO OBSESSION
CANNOT KILL THE BATTERY
CANNOT KILL THE FAMILY, BATTERY IS FOUND IN ME…♪
Song of the Moment: “Battery” by Metallica

Weekly Pulls [16 Feb 2006]

Cover of the Moment:  'She-Hulk' #5Just some thoughts on the comics I picked up this week. No “real” books this week, unfortunately. I really need to get back to finishing my rereading of The Count of Monte Cristo though.

» Justice #4 (DC)
I’m not liking this series as much as everyone on the boards. The art’s still solid despite Alex Ross not penciling, only painting the art.
Rating: 7 out of 10 (good)

» The Incredible Hulk #92 (Marvel)
Decent, though I’ve been out of the Hulk loop for a long time now. At least it’s a “major event” that’s getting over hyped like everything else these days. It’s only the first book of the Planet Hulk event, so it can go either way.
Rating: 6 out of 10 (average)

» The New Avengers #16 (Marvel)
Much like Justice above, this book’s all about the art for me. Steve McNiven should be a regular artist on this series. From what it looks like in this issue we may get some sort of closure from the House of M event from Bendis himself.
Rating: 7 out of 10 (good)

» She-Hulk #5 (Marvel)
This second volume or “season” isn’t as good as the first six issues of the last volume, but it’s still pretty funny. Nothing since Spidey’s lawsuit against J. Jonah Jameson in the first volume has gotten me laughing to the point of falling out of my chair though. Gotta love the Greg Horn covers though.
Rating: 6 out of 10 (average)

» Ultimate Fantastic Four #27 (Marvel)
Mark Millar deserves all of the hype that Brian Michael Bendis is getting, he’s just the better writer who can actually consistently write engaging superhero stories (it’s not that easy, look at 75% of the crap Marvel and DC puts out and you’ll know why). The great art by Greg Land is just icing on the cake. Sure the story’s been done before in theme, with Ben depressed over his life as the Thing, but the way he elaborates on his pain makes it unique.
Rating: 8 out of 10 (good)

» X-Men: Deadly Genesis # 4 (Marvel)
Ed Brubaker’s starting to feel like an over hyped writer these days, much like Bendis is. This series isn’t living up to the man’s rep.
Rating: 6 out of 10 (average)
“This skin disorder I got in here. This radiation thing that’s happening to my body. This ain’t temporary… This is a lifetime condition and that ain’t ever gonna change. It’s okay ofr you. Your symptoms after the accident made you a super-stud. You date cool chicks and go to cool parties. Me, I just think about suicide every day. I’d slit my wrists if I could find a razor that didn’t break every time I tried. You think Reed could help end it, Johnny? You think he could find a way to kill me since he’s given up on curing me? You figure that’s too much to ask?”
Comic of the Moment: Ultimate Fantastic Four #27 by Mark Millar and Greg Land

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Closure

About damned time...It’s about damned time. I spent five years wasting away in that school for this piece of paper. You’d think they’d have the decency to send it out in a decent time frame, if not onstage. It finally feels nice to know that I’m finally free of needing anything from this school. Last week Dad told me I could've gotten in-state tuition in Hawaii. I wish I would've known that five years ago, being able to enjoy all A's and the beach.
♪…LAY BESIDE ME, UNDER WICKED SKIES
THROUGH BLACK OF DAY, DARK OF NIGHT, WE SHARE THIS PARALYZE
THE DOOR CRACKS OPEN BUT THERE’S NO SUN SHINING THROUGH
BLACK HEART SCARRING DARKER STILL, BUT THERE’S NO SUN SHINING THROUGH…♪
Song of the Moment: “The Unforgiven II” by Metallica

Monday, February 13, 2006

Back... Again

Hottie of the Moment:  Elisha CuthbertTwo 15 hour flights in a little over a week can be rough, trust me. This is especially so if you don’t choose the right seats. I always go for aisle exit seats since they afford you the most leg room. Sure, there’s that added responsibility but I figure if the plane crashes, you’re most likely to be dead along with everyone else, anyway. Korea was nothing special, just constantly below freezing for most of my days there. My laptop’s screen decided to stop functioning again by the time I got there so I was stuck being somewhat bored with a 15 lb. paper weight to carry around in my backpack. My brother’s friend had loaned him the first season of 24, which I watched in its entirety in a couple days. Twenty four hours of TV must be a new record for me since I don’t watch it much at all under normal circumstances. I didn’t know that hottie from The Girl Next Door was on that show.

Jack seems to be playing it careful these last couple of days. Maybe he suspects something? I wouldn't put it past him, he can be attentive when he wants to be. Ryan owes me money, which I hope I don't have to take out of his hide the hard way.

I need to get back to work on searching for employment. It might help that Dr. Endicott (recent Nobel Prize nominee, 7th out of 199) finally finished a letter of recommendation for me. The prof’s been too kind to me the last two years that I’ve known him.
♪…WHEN YOUR LIFE WAS LIVED FULLY COCKED AND LOADED
BUT YOUR SOUL WAS EMPTY THROUGH AND THROUGH
IT MAKES ME REALIZE MAYBE YOU SOLD IT
FOR THE DREAM OF A LIFETIME OR MAYBE TWO… YEAH YOU…♪
Song of the Moment: “Born Again for the Last Time” by Corrosion of Conformity

Friday, February 03, 2006

Going Home

Hottie of the Moment:  Grace ParkMy mother’s birthday is on the fifth, so I’ve decided to catch a flight home and surprise her. The $1500 ticket was quite the hit in the bank, but I’ll have nearly another 14,000 frequent flyer miles to add to the 90,000 I’ve still got pooled up. It’ll also be a nice change of pace, especially since I haven’t seen my family in over a year. Plus, it'll let me get away from my douchebag roommates for a week or more. Well, I'd better get my Nyquil packed, it's going to be a long flight. Hopefully Mom won't be crabby the whole week.
♪TIMES HAVE CHANGED AND TIMES ARE STRANGE
HERE I COME, BUT I AIN’T THE SAME
MAMA, I’M COMING HOME
TIMES GONE BY SEEMS TO BE
YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A BETTER FRIEND TO ME
MAMA, I’M COMING HOME…♪
Song of the Moment: “Mama, I’m Coming Home” by Ozzy Osbourne.

Friday, January 27, 2006

The Next Wave

Elsa BloodstoneWarren Ellis has to be my current favorite comic writer; he’s just so versatile. I’ve known for a while that he has a talent at writing humor (mostly in the black variety) but I can’t remember laughing this hard in a long while. NextWave was definitely a pleasant surprise this week. My second favorite of the pulls this week was the current issue of New Avengers, which gave me a smile when I noticed that the thought balloons of Ms. Marvel were pieces of multiple posts on her weblog.
“NextWave is a super hero comic about five people who have just minutes to prevent a town from being eaten by a giant lizard monster in purple underpants.”
Comic of the Moment: NextWave by Warren Ellis and Stuart Immonen

Poker Faces

Poker HandPlayed some poker (Texas Hold ‘Em) last night with the roommates and a couple of their friends and I’ve realized maybe I’ve been too lenient with them. It seems that they think they can walk all over me, though perhaps it could have just been the beer talking. Regardless, I’m tired of playing nice and I feel if I get any more shit from those bastards they’re going to get punched. Problem (for them) is I don’t pull punches.
♪…YOU PRETEND IT DOESN’T BOTHER YOU
BUT YOU JUST WANT TO EXPLODE…♪
Song of the Moment: “Turn the Page” covered by Metallica

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Return of the Loner

Bruce Wayne
I feel like I don't know what I'm doing anymore, now that school has ended. It seems like I'm making no headway whatsoever with the job market. It's rather frustrating but I need to keep on going at it. Dr. Endicott and Angie have been taking their time with putting together that letter of recommendation. Maybe it'll help, or maybe it's a false hope. I really should check up on the status of that letter today. I also need to try and get a plane ticket home sometime today too. So many things I need to do, but all I feel is lethargic and defeated, so alone. I've handled being a loner once, it shouldn't be too hard to do again.
♪...NOW THE WORLD IS GONE, I'M JUST ONE
OH GOD, HELP ME...♪
Song of the Moment: "One" by Metallica